I have been thinking…

I have been thinking. Is life really worth living if you do something you don’t love from the bottom of your heart? Is there really reason to be if you study something just because everyone expects you to do it. Or just because you don’t know what else to do so you just pick out the easiest route. I have been thinking and it is never a good sign. I […]

In Moment Everything Can Change

I’m sitting in my bed knowing tomorrow I will leave this place I call home. It’s been ten hours after I decided to take the student place given to me. Day after tomorrow will be the first day of school. Tomorrow I’m moving far away to live on my own.  I’s scared and I’m thrilled. What if I don’t survive? Or even better what if I do? What if this […]

Not Enough

Yesterday I sat twenty minutes in car with my mum. The whole time she told me reasons why I should apply to the agricultural school. I have kept saying that I don’t want to go there. I will be miserable if I have to study that subject for another three years. She doesn’t listen. She says it’s the only place I can get in. That I can’t do other jobs. It’s […]

And she lied…

I have always been good at lying. It’s skill I don’t know to be proud of or try to get rid off. I know how to make anyone believe anything. It has always been like that. I remember as child making something my sisters fault and never even getting caught. (I’m sorry if you read this someday!) So why am I talking about this today? Because no one knows what […]